Tired.

Waaah.. I dont wanna wake up. I can hardly move my body and my head is not functioning well. Here i am again, feeling so depressed, so down and so tired. Well, maybe i guess its time to straighten things for me. :-)I observed that in the past few days, i feel so weak and so lonely. Actually im counting down from the time i feel so happy until it would eventually perish. i know everythings has limitation, and the time, we know, we cant just allow it to stop and settle to the moment so memorable to us, that we dont want to leave. Its been a week since i had this feeling of ups and downs, somewhat euphoric in nature but could be instensely sad. huhu how i wish i could just easily erase all the things that could cause me pain, temporary happiness or whatever it is that concerns my emotions. damn. i am totaly screwed. Days from now, history will be repeating again, and maybe i will be starting all over again. well, its just a guess. i dont wana close the possibilities but i am open to whatever events to come whether it would be painful or not. T_T




haizzz.. im quite uncertain about tomorrow or next few days. ofcourse about my studies and also my Life. its quite complicated to say but its like a make or break scenes. really im counting my happy days, then hours from now.. im afraid, i dont know. maybe im just depressed that i cant control this fucking water flowing from my eyes.. what? water? haha damn you glenn. here you are again, playing some lies and make-believe things. you are hurt, cant you see and it will get worse and you will be terribly lonely in this damn whole universe.

what can i do? i dont have choices right? im doomed for all of this. grrrrrrr.

Maybe time has something to reserve for me, you know in the near future. i cant just bear the idea that i will be bidding goodbye so soon. well things could sometimes beyond our grasps. the truth is, we cant hold on to something no matter how important that person is. and thats the saddest truth i learned. even the most remembering moments, its so sad to say they'll all be gone against your will.