I can never fully imagined how i had fared so well in this little crazy adventure of life. Honestly, the way i see it totaly amazes me coz for someone like me, its really hard to be me. Its hard to please all my wants and its difficult to give in to my whims and caprices. I was once a spoiled kid and today i wonder if i remained the same. I enjoy doing things that arouse my curiosity, things that in some way bring me to new ideas.
Happiest piece of Cake
And oh, its been a while since my mother used to carry me and let me sleep. I trully miss those times, even i can hardly remember how it feels to be carried and being watched to sleep by someone that loves you whole-heartedly, i am wanting to feel that again. Really, time flies so fast. Im 20, and few days from now i will be leaving my college life, as a college boy. I will be introduce to a newer world, and hopefully, it is of my like. What i expect in that new place? A new sense of hope, of love and happiness. Something not new but an indelible proof of being alive and having a life. For too long now, i am walking in despair. Desperately speaking, im longing for the love and care that i had felt before in my mom's warm embrace. I know its not something so costly but i tell you, it never comes for free that you can get it anytime as you like. It needs time, love and understanding that fills the emptiness and complete the remaining puzzle of one's life. It needs a pint of emotion and a willingness to freely submit to fate's maneuvering, and again, the possibilities of spending the best and the worst of you, in terms acceptable not only to me, but also, in you.
And where in the world could i find such?
Now tell me, can our paths possibly cross with each other? Wouldn't i be scared if someday, we'll be just as what we are right now, so far and so lonely? I am afraid, this kind of pain and assuming hope would be in vain.
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